The Start...Again

 Some people think gastric bypass surgery is their answer to weight loss. For some, yeah, it works. For me, I had two rounds. Yes, two rounds of gastric bypass surgery. And this is me. The first time around, I lost 100 lbs. But I gained the regained weight quickly, even though I changed my eating.

I have to say, it helped with my diabetes tremendously. I was taking 100 units, 10 shots a day before. So, yeah, in that regard it helped.

When I started regaining the weight, my endocronologist suggested I have it revised. I started the process and found it much easier the second time. However, I heard, from friends, that people who have revisions tend to lose only about 35 lbs. That's a lot of pain and expense to go through for 35 lbs.

I was assured that I could expect to at least lose as much as I did the first time. Yeah! But...

My surgeon told me that my stomach was sitting abnormally when he did the revision. It's placement allowed for food to run through it, so essentially, I was limited in the size of the bite, but didn't benefit from the other benefits of gastric bypass.

After a few months, my weight loss stalled after 35 lbs. I was exercising (something I didn't do the first time) and eating right. I even kept a daily meal log, which actually showed I wasn't getting enough calories.

My surgeon couldn't figure it out. As my friend said, my revision lost me all of 35 lbs.

So, 10 years after the revision, I've started gaining again. I don't get it because I don't eat much. Really! And as both me and my husband are diabetics, and one of my son's have ADHD with Turrets,  we're very careful about what we eat and all exercise regularly.

So here I am. My never ending fight. The weight. I don't want to be super thin. (Believe it or not, I wore a size 5 when I was in high school). I just want to shop in the "normal" section for clothes. (Why do people think that heavy people need to wear neon, anyway? Like what? We're not big enough already? We need neon colors to announce our presence???).

I thought perhaps if I put this online, I might be more accountable. We'll see.